My journey began at a young age, feeling lost, neglected and not enough. Into my teenage years and early adulthood, I suffered from anxiety and depression. I felt a deep sense of loss and confusion for who I was and who I was expected to be. I experienced a lot of abuse and ridicule for who I was becoming. I spent most of my life being suppressed by those around me and those who loved me. I held my true self back for the sake and comfort of others, never fully blossoming into the soul I was destined to become.
I hurt myself immensely along the way, with self doubt, self hatred and negative thinking. I didn't have respect for myself, nor love for myself to allow my true form to take root and grow. I let other's opinions and words dictate me and stunt my growth.
After years of diving into spirituality, I came to discover my strength and learned to overcome the judgment and expectations of others. I was blooming into the soul that I was meant to be. I learned to let go of limiting beliefs, self doubts and self hatred. I grew to love and accept who I was and let go of the weight of opinions of others.
It wasn't easy by no means. I had many dark moments of beating myself up, regretting the past, and endured a lot of pain that comes with healing. Spending time digging deep within my soul, the agony and sorrow that was brought to the surface was at times unbearable. But I pushed through, I worked through it, and breathed life back into those decaying pieces of myself.
After all that time and effort, sitting with the pain of my choices in my life and how I let others decide who I was for me for so long, I was able to let that all go. I allowed myself to be free from all the restraints, I could finally breathe. I slowly stepped into who I was meant to be. I woke up. I began to see the world and myself a new. I forgave myself and others. Spending countless hours observing my thoughts and past experiences and feeling every emotion that came with them, I was able to accept what was and give that part love and slowly let it go.
Through all of that, I just let myself be. Now, I feel happy, content and proud of who I am, despite my differences from the world. I let myself be the weird, hippie, nature girl (as my family likes to put it). I freed myself from the chains that I slowly wrapped around myself for years and years. I express myself without fear and speak my mind no matter how wild it sounds to some. I spend my time healing in nature, working on homesteading, learning holistic ways of living and reviving the old ways of living. I am here to preserve the old ways and share that with others. I am here to share my experiences and methods on growth and expansion of the self.
My goal is to share that with you, to grow and learn along side you. I hope to teach you ways to accept yourself and ways to fully step into who you are with love. I want to share my experiences and methods with living more holistically and old fashioned. With understanding that there will be hard moments or periods of time, but having courage and inspiration to press forward and grow from it all.
With all my love and light
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